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Perfect World by Broken Bells

"Perfect World"

Oh, London Moon, help me stumble home
Let me lose myself along the way
I’ve got nothing left, it’s kind of wonderful
Cause there’s nothing they can take away… away

The open doors left me wanting more
Never thought they’d close them all the way
The ordinary life they want for you
Is it too much to have to bear

But it’s another way to win a useless fight
You’ve been lying so long, don’t know when you’re faking
See the water on the rise
Just another day into a useless night
I’ve been pushing so hard now my hands are shaking
See the water on the rise

But I’ve been turned around
I was upside down
I thought love would always find a way
But I know better now
Got it figured out
It’s a perfect world all the same

But I’ve been turned around
I was upside down
I thought love would always find a way
But I know better now
Got it figured out
It’s a perfect world all the same

I was hoping for
An easy rambling life
Till the notion came to my mind

We look for exit signs
But we can’t be changed
Into nothing overnight

Though we know it’s over
It keeps exploding
Every morning when we rise

Sutliff

…and just like that, as quick as the fall into love, he got up and wiped off the dust. Love was too messy, and he didn’t like seeing the dirt in his reflection. It was this connection that forsake all else; now I was ruined forever. 

The cliche and overwritten story of love. I hate you, which is only too close to the feeling of love; I hate you because you have rejected my love….

Rejection is traumatizing for the human experience since the time of infancy. 

We spoke mindlessly and quickly when we planned our life together, yet it is always those moments of stupidity that stick the strongest. My heart is now stuck with you, and trying to pull you off of me is causing more pain than the sticky reminder that you once were. 

How am I supposed to live out my future without your surname? After all, Kayla Marie Sutliff just sounds better than anything else right now… Funny how love can transform an independent and strong self into something that seems to be dying without your love. 

Codependence at its finest.

I am what you’d like to call “Fucking Retarded!”

I am what you’d like to call “Fucking Retarded!”

You you and your friend are assigned as lab partners

You you and your friend are assigned as lab partners

When your friends start talking about an event that you weren’t invited to

When your friends start talking about an event that you weren’t invited to

When you decide to make yourself dinner rather than going out

When you decide to make yourself dinner rather than going out

When your computer says that it is connected to the internet but nothing loads

When your computer says that it is connected to the internet but nothing loads

When you show up at a party and dont know anyone there

When you show up at a party and dont know anyone there

When someone says, “hey can I borrow your comp-“

When someone says, “hey can I borrow your comp-“

Your mind will continue to produce thought just as your heart will continue to beat. If you want peace of mind, it is not about the thoughts alone, but rather your attachment to those thoughts. I guess what I’m trying to say is this: learn to let go. Do not dwell on circumstances outside of yourself, but instead meditate on the health of your body and spirit. Because thoughts turn into words, and words turn into actions, and actions define your character, and your character determines your destiny.   

Your mind will continue to produce thought just as your heart will continue to beat. If you want peace of mind, it is not about the thoughts alone, but rather your attachment to those thoughts. I guess what I’m trying to say is this: learn to let go. Do not dwell on circumstances outside of yourself, but instead meditate on the health of your body and spirit. Because thoughts turn into words, and words turn into actions, and actions define your character, and your character determines your destiny.